AHH I JUST LOVE THIS SONG LOL

 

SAVAGE GARDEN IS THE MOST RELAXING .. NEXT TO PIANO

 

... WELL LETS SEE... I WENT TO WORK YESTERDAY.. IT FEELS LIKE ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS WORKING ... WELL ITS DIFFERENT SINCE IM ONLY USED TO WORKING ONE FREAKING DAY LOL.. ANTONY D SMELLED LIKE FRESH LAUNDRY AND I WAS LIKE "YOU SMELL LIKE MY BOYFRIEND" AND HE SAID "WELL YOUR BOYFRIEND IS A GOOD SMELLING MAN".. I MISSED HIM A LOT.. ANTONY'S SCENT REMINDED ME OF ELVIS SO MUCH.. ITS SO WEIRD.. WE HAVENT EVEN BEEN AWAY FOR A MONTH YET.. BARELY 2 AND 1/2 WEEKS.. BUT IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER.. LAST NIGHT WHEN I GOT TO FALL ASLEEP TO HIS VOICE.. IT FELT SO NICE.. I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP LIKE THAT EVER SINCE WE STOPPED CALLING EACH OTHER.. I MISS HIM.. ANYWAYS.. BACK TO WORK.. MY NOSE STARTED BLEEDING.. AND ANTONY [BOSS] TOLD ME TO GO STAND IN THE FREEZER.. I THOUGHT HE WAS JOKING .. THEN HE WAS LIKE SERIOSULY GO STAND IN THE FREEZER.. LOL I TRIED IT.. IT WORK.. THE AIR FELT MORE REFRESHING.. I GUESS IT WAS TOO STUFFY IN THE MALL.. GOD DAMN MALL RATS.. I SWEAR TO GOD I SEE THIS ONE FAMILY EVERYDAY..WELL EVERYDAY THAT I WORK.. ANYWAYS

 

.. IM TRYING TO DECIDE ON AN ANNIVERSARY GIFT.. BUT I DONT KNOW.. ITS SO HARD.. THERES SO LITTLE TIME LEFT TOO.. I CANT BELIEVE WE HAVE ALMOST BEEN TOGETHER FOR A YEAR.. IT SEEMS SO FAST.. THAT IT WAS ONLY A MONTH AGO THAT HE ASKED ME .. HEH.. WELL I BETTER GET BACK TO WORK..

 

-- ALWAYS RISTI

..I'VE BEEN THINKING.. WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE WITHOUT EXPERIENCING EVERYTHING..

EVER SINCE I WENT BACK TO WORK.. I'VE SEEN WHAT I'VE BEEN MISSING NOT GOING TO WORK.. BUT THEN IF DIDN'T TAKE THAT BREAK I WOULD NEVER GOT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FRIENDS... EVEN THOUGH IT WASN'T THAT MUCH.. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN A VERY GOOD FRIEND... I WANT THEM TO KNOW THAT WITHOUT THEM I WOULDN'T BE ME.. EVEN THE PEOPLE I JUST SAY HI TO NOW.. THEY'VE ALL HAVE SOME SIGNIFICANT ON MY LIFE.. LOOKING BACK INTO LAST YEAR.. IT MAKES ME SAD I CAN'T HAVE THAT LIFE AGAIN... I'VE SEEN THAT EVERYONE'S MOVED ON WITHOUT ME.. AND I SHOULD HAVE EXPECTED IT.. BUT I HOPE WE CAN REGAIN WHAT WAS LOST AGAIN.. BECAUSE I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH.. I MISS THE FUN WE ALL HAD..

 

-- ALWAYS RISTI

FROM NOW ON I'LL PUT UP A SONG TITLE FOR EVERY BLOG I WRITE, IT WILL BE MY THEME FOR THE ENTIRE BLOG.

 

.. I CHOSE MOVE ALONG BY THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS BECAUSE I HAVE REALIZED THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MOVING ON.. HIGH SCHOOL IS ENDING.. I MEAN WE'VE ONLY GOT ONE YEAR LEFT.. SUMMER IS COMING AND THE LAST TIME WE'RE GOING TO BE TOGETHER IS NEXT YEAR.. TIME MOVES SO FAST.. I JUST WISH I COULD STAY IN HIGH SCHOOL FOR A FEW MORE YEARS.. I'M NOT READY TO BE AWAY FROM EVERYONE.. I REMEMBER BACK WHEN I COULDN'T WAIT TO GROW UP.. BUT NOW I WANT TO SLOW IS WAY DOWN.. I KINDA WANT TO BE A KID AGAIN... WITH ALL THE FREEDOM.. BUT WHAT CAN WE DO.. ALL WE CAN DO IS MOVE ALONG WITH LIFE.. UNTIL WE GET OLD

 

.. I ALSO CHOSE THIS BECAUSE.. MY RELATIONSHIP HAS MOVED ALONG.. EVEN THOUGH WITH ALL THE DRAMA AND EVERYTHING.. WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO MOVE ALONG NOW.. WE CAN STILL KEEP IN CONTACT THANKS TO THE INTERNET WITHOUT IT I WOULD PROBABLY DIE.. LOL.. WE JUST TRYING TO GET ALONG NOW.. WITH LESS CONTACT.. IT SEEMS LIKE WE'RE DRIFTING.. BUT WHEN WE FINALLY GET A CHANCE TO TALK.. I FEEL LIKE WE JUST FELL IN LOVE AGAIN.. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. .. HES SO SWEET TO ME.. LAST NIGHT HE WAITED ALL NIGHT FOR ME.. I FEEL HORRIBLE I LEFT HIM STRANDED.. NO OTHER GUY WOULD WAIT SO LONG.. JUST TO HAVE ME SAY GOODNIGHT.. AND I DIDNT EVEN GET A CHANCE..

 

LOVE HIM TONS..

 

- ALWAYS RISTI

IT NEVER SEEMS LIKE THERES A DAY WHERE I GO WITHOUT MISSING HIM.. AND NOW.. THAT I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO HIM IN OVER 3 DAYS.. I'M SO WORRIED SICK.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW. I CAN'T TALK ABOUT HIM.. I CAN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT HIM .. OR MY PARENTS WILL SEND ME AWAY.. BUT I CAN'T HELP IT.. I LOVE HIM.. NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE TELL ME I'M STUPID AND FOOLISH.. I LOVE HIM.. HE HAS BEEN THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE SO FAR.. I KNOW PEOPLE THINK WE'RE TOO YOUNG TO EXPERIENCE LOVE OR TO EVEN KNOW WHAT LOVE IS.. BUT FOR THESE PAST 10 MONTHS.. I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS .. AND NOW ALL I CAN DO IS SIT AND CRY MY EYES OUT WORRYING FOR HIM.. BECAUSE I HAVE NO WAY TO REACH HIM OR EVEN TO TELL IF HE IS OKAY.. PLEASE JUST COME HOME TO ME.. JUST TO SEE HIS SCREEN NAME POP UP ON MY LIST .. THATS ALL I NEED TO KNOW THAT HE'S OKAY.. PLEASE LET HIM BE OKAY.. I HOPE I SEE HIM TOMORROW.. THIS HAS TURNED OUT INTO A HORRIBLE SITUATION.

 

-- ALWAYS YOU KNOW WHO

darn, i said i was doing a revival, but its been like a week since i last wrote

 

let's see today.. i did most of my homework yesterday.. so i don't really have any today!.. ACK! that is amazing considering i've been crying over the workload.. anyways.. so what have i been up to these past few months.. or many months.. i don't remember how long its been since i kept my xanga up.. it was like last summer .. so that means its almost a whole year since i actually wrote daily!.. omgosh! thats so a long time.. i blame elvis! lol.. just kidding, more like i blame MYSPACE! ahh its so addicting .. now i just bored of it.. too many people its getting overpopular and overrated.. even though i still enjoy keeping in touch with everybody.. nobody really checks out my myspace anymore.. plus on here i get a little more privacy..

 

-- always risti